04 October 2011 @ 11:48 pm
you got a job offer at microsoft? well, i can move like jagger!!  

i suppose i can blame jane for my newfound love for pixels

♦ classes have started again. i'm trying to not psyche myself out (because i have a talent for that i suppose) but it's taking a lot of self control and inner monologue-pep talks. i'm only taking four classes this quarter and they aren't too bad? i don't have classes on fridays (three day weekends every week ayoooo) and i have huge gaps in between classes. it's a nice schedule but not very accommodating for if i get a job during the school year. hm.
♦ one thing i don't think i can ever get used to is the disconnect i feel with my business school classmates. my personality is just so dissimilar to about 98% of them. i don't possess professional asshole skills okay. just stop irritating me. just today i had this one girl look down on me because i don't already have a job offer lined up. gurl take those ugly 4 inch heels and shove them up your non-fat latte chugging arse.
♦ since i am graduating this spring, i have decided to hit the job market early. just the last week i've been staying strange hours of the morning applying for full time jobs, internships, part time gigs, basically anything i could get at. a bunch of big names (accenture, deloitte, mcgladrey, etc) are already recruiting so i'm scrambling to get things done. it's just so tiring because i get so worked up over how under qualified i am and how my background is so shabby compared to everyone else's. it's so frustrating to know that you don't stand a chance of even being considered for this job, why even bother? i do power through these feelings of doubt because my failure rate would be 100% if i don't apply at all. maybe i'll get lucky or something. also going back to networking events. oh lawd incoming social failure ahoy.
♦ speaking of talking to people. i've decided to just stop with okcupid for the time being. i wasn't finding anyone remotely interesting (hoya lookalike oppar was a hater and didn't respond to my cute flirty message. fuq you) and kept on getting creepers in my inbox. and indian oppars that creep on my page every five minutes. i still have an account for the lulz because i like narrating my okcupid messages to tlist.
SPEAKING OF INDIAN OPPARS. I did go on a date with one. It went horribly. I didn't want to give him a chance in the first place because i thought he was really pushy (srsly why are you so damn pressed that i don't respond to your text within an hour. calm da fuq down mang) but lisa and jackie told me that i was being unfair. he called me on a saturday and i picked up, thinking it was my mom D: the jabronie wanted our first date to be clubbing. i told him very politely to take a flying leap at the moon. he backtracked and asked me out for coffee and a movie. we ended up seeing something i didn't want to see. :)
♦ on the day of the date he was late. and then he was waiting at the wrong place. we had awkward conversation that had absolutely no flow whatsoever. the worst part was during the movie where he tried to continue the conversation at the worst times possible. during a scene where a cat was strangled he leaned over and asked me if i liked pets. there was also rape scene and he decided it would be appropriate to ask me i liked going clubbing. WATER YOU DEWING MANG.
♦ i think he wanted to get dinner but i wanted the date to be over so badly that i made up some bullshit excuse about how i had family coming over that evening and i needed to head back. he drove me back home in his ~expensive~ bmw that he couldn't stop gushing over. gag. the dude asked if he could come in for some coffee before my "family" came over. i eyed him and told him very gently that we already had coffee earlier. excuse you. i thanked him with a handshake. a handshake okay.
♦ i thought it was very clear that the date went terribly. but no! apparently he thought otherwise. he texted the day after asking if i wanted to get dinner. i told him point blank that i wasn't interested at all and didn't want to waste his or my time. he was a bit butthurt. i feel bad for not exactly being the best date evar, because he was gentlemanly and didn't try anything, but goddamn. we had no chemistry whatsoever. it also didn't help in that it looked like he had a toupee growing on his chest. i nearly ran away screaming when i saw that carpet of hair tumbling out of his polo shirt sjldffdfdsjsChestHairIsGrossOkay /mean
 
 
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[identity profile] jibegajima.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 07:03 am (UTC)
"there was also rape scene and he decided it would be appropriate to ask me i liked going clubbing."

I fuckin' lol'd okay what the fuck. How does that even SEEM any sort of appropriate, oh my god.

Good luck on the job search and stuff, though. If I could vouch for your wonderfulness I definitely would send them a letter of recommendation! ♥
[identity profile] kiku-cha8-8.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 08:03 am (UTC)
indian oppar was pretty bad with the social cues ;;

unnir if you wrote me a rec letter idk if i would ever want to part with it ;w;
[identity profile] tsukipon.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 07:35 am (UTC)
in your own words, Fuq No Bro
i'm sorry for laughing so much the first time...and that i'm still laughing now
[identity profile] kiku-cha8-8.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 08:02 am (UTC)
omg rude.
[identity profile] canttakeabreath.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 12:00 pm (UTC)
i told him point blank that i wasn't interested at all and didn't want to waste his or my time.

wow. i have never been able to do this, which is why i end up seemingly leading people on for ages when i have no interest in being in a relationship at all whatsoever :| a fucking plus.

also being an asshole as a profession is the dumps. there are enough of those at my university. i would like to grind my stiletto heel into their brains and remind them that one day they will trip up and the world won't be nearly so forgiving.

YOU'RE ON THE QUARTER SYSTEM TOO. now it all makes sense.
[identity profile] kiku-cha8-8.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 08:41 pm (UTC)
idk i also have never been in a relationship before because i usually don't like the guy and terminate it really early. IT'S A VICIOUS CYCLE.

there is this blonde girl that is so damn aggressive. she came up to the guy sitting next to me and demanded to know what was going on. i wanted to throw my soda at her in my raeg.
[identity profile] canttakeabreath.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 10:26 pm (UTC)
wtf tell her to cool her fucking tits. jesus i hate hypercompetitive people. i mean okay i get like that all the time but i keep my obsessions to myself, okay.
[identity profile] canttakeabreath.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 10:28 pm (UTC)
also that is a totally valid reason to not be in a relationship? idk i...honestly don't like the person i become when i date people. i don't like the expectation of having someone being affected by my life choices. i am not prepared for that investment yet. so i refuse to, on principle. i'm pretty honest and open about it too? but every boy seems to think that "this date will change everything" but it doesn't, it won't. i just have zero interest in dating anyone/being in a committed relationship.
[identity profile] evanelric.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 02:19 pm (UTC)
ok cupid is awful omg ilit. it is like the train wreck game but with rl instead of fanfic erkjghdg\o/ also have you seen bride and prejudice? it is the bollywood version of pride and prejudice and I am picturing that Indian oppar as being a lot like mr. kholi and rolling on the floor. I know I shouldn't and I feel really bad that you had to go through that, but omg!!! also mad props to you for telling him to back the eff up.

alsooooooooooo business school eikrjghaerjkg I look forward to the day you hire me to be your cleaning lady ;~~~~~~~; YOU CAN ALSO APPLY TO PNC AND MOVE TO PITTSBURGH, THO :DDDDDDDbb no ok but really pittsburgh is a super cool place, it's just that there are not many cool people here (although in their defense I never meet anyone new, so there could actually be tons of awesome people I am not outgoing enough to find, SO)
[identity profile] hopeandmemory.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 04:43 pm (UTC)
butting into say that pittsburgh is totally cool! i went and visited my friend there over new year's 2009 and it was soooo fun. :3
[identity profile] evanelric.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 05:56 pm (UTC)
SEE??? EVERYONE SHOULD MOVE TO PITTSBURGH AND WE CAN HAVE AWESOME FUNTIEMS AND NOT ALL BE #FOREVERALONE. I even have two cats so we can get a head start on that crazy cat lady thing :|
[identity profile] hopeandmemory.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 06:21 pm (UTC)
i can add my cat, too! we can just go to that place that makes crepes and eat crepes all the time and play with our cats and languish in unemployment!!!
[identity profile] kiku-cha8-8.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 08:46 pm (UTC)
i'm probably gonna stay on the west coast until a few years later. BUT IF I EVER TRANSFER TO PITTSBURGH YOU MUST SHOW M E AROUND

eh, it was a good experience in the end. i found out that i don't dig on indian guys lol.
[identity profile] hopeandmemory.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 04:42 pm (UTC)
(hoya lookalike oppar was a hater and didn't respond to my cute flirty message. fuq you)

this is like me and every guy i'm interested in on okc. fuck you, you don't deserve me anyway!!! >:|

chest hair is totally gross, i don't blame you at all for thinking so. and god DAMN this guy was trying hard. and clearly doesn't know how to read social cues. BACK DOWN, SIR. (also w t a f at that movie conversation omg.)

okc is such a crapshoot istg. i'm sorry you had such a crappy date. D:

and good luck with the job search! at least there are places that are recruiting, so it's not like you're just flinging your resume out into the wind and hoping it'll stick somewhere. xD YOU CAN DO ITTTTTT. ♥
[identity profile] kiku-cha8-8.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 09:08 pm (UTC)
honest to god it might as well be like i'm flinging my resume into a tornado.

i considered this to be an experiment. gotta know how dates go and what not to do :3 also gotta know how to tell these oppars to back down.

HOYA WHY YOU NO LOVE ME
[identity profile] kanginese.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 06:11 pm (UTC)
I WILL GLADLY TAKE ANY AND ALL BLAMES

I am so with you on the chest hair thing omg I don't even mind pit hair, and leg hair can be tolerated if not in excess, BUT CHEST HAIR MAKES ME WANT TO SCREAM CRY DIE

Also he sounds so awkward lmao at least he wasn't a douche but... sometimes being bland and weird can be just as bad :|
[identity profile] kiku-cha8-8.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 09:11 pm (UTC)
I don't mind pit hair, or leg hair. Heavy facial hair and chest hair are just nightmares. DNW TO TOUCH

yeah, his problem was that he was pushy as fuq and just awk.
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[identity profile] hitsujiga.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 07:25 pm (UTC)
hdu chesthair is godly 8| at least on black forrest oppar ^0^

omg but i'm so sorry your date was such a douche, you did the right thing~
is okcupid sth like...a dating site for asians or something? XD /is stupid

and don't give up on jobs/networking okay? i wish you the best of luck! you will get your chance i'm sure :) fighting!
[identity profile] kiku-cha8-8.livejournal.com on October 5th, 2011 09:15 pm (UTC)
no chest hair is just gross. a regular nightmare for me. DNW TO BE RUBBING ON YOUR MAN CARPET.

it wasn't like he was a douche per say, he just didn't follow the social cues. if i give you a handshake to end a date, that means i am not interested in you. at all. lol okcupid is an online dating site. anybody can join, it's not asian specific.
[identity profile] hitsujiga.livejournal.com on October 6th, 2011 11:47 am (UTC)
lol man carpet XDDD

well guys with social ignorance are douches for me 8D
oic, thanks for edumacating me :}
[identity profile] sweetshisus.livejournal.com on October 6th, 2011 01:19 am (UTC)
oh god indian oppar sounded terrible. glad nothing worse happened. yeah, I've kind of given up on okcupid. the one guy who was messaging me still hasn't responded since our last message so I've given up lmao :(

but gluck with job searches and whatnot! I know how scary it is ;~~; you can do it, unnir! and maybe you'll find a nice businessman oppar at your job ;)
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[identity profile] shampoo.livejournal.com on October 6th, 2011 05:49 am (UTC)
during a scene where a cat was strangled he leaned over and asked me if i liked pets. there was also rape scene and he decided it would be appropriate to ask me i liked going clubbing.

this is why im not marrying an indian like my grandpa wanted me to
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[identity profile] intendedsarcasm.livejournal.com on October 8th, 2011 08:12 pm (UTC)
good luck on the job searching! I feel bad for laughing at your date especially at the last bit about chest hair omg.
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