04 October 2011 @ 11:48 pm
you got a job offer at microsoft? well, i can move like jagger!!

i suppose i can blame jane for my newfound love for pixels♦ classes have started again. i'm trying to not psyche myself out (because i have a talent for that i suppose) but it's taking a lot of self control and inner monologue-pep talks. i'm only taking four classes this quarter and they aren't too bad? i don't have classes on fridays (three day weekends every week ayoooo) and i have huge gaps in between classes. it's a nice schedule but not very accommodating for if i get a job during the school year. hm. ♦ one thing i don't think i can ever get used to is the disconnect i feel with my business school classmates. my personality is just so dissimilar to about 98% of them. i don't possess professional asshole skills okay. just stop irritating me. just today i had this one girl look down on me because i don't already have a job offer lined up. gurl take those ugly 4 inch heels and shove them up your non-fat latte chugging arse. ♦ since i am graduating this spring, i have decided to hit the job market early. just the last week i've been staying strange hours of the morning applying for full time jobs, internships, part time gigs, basically anything i could get at. a bunch of big names (accenture, deloitte, mcgladrey, etc) are already recruiting so i'm scrambling to get things done. it's just so tiring because i get so worked up over how under qualified i am and how my background is so shabby compared to everyone else's. it's so frustrating to know that you don't stand a chance of even being considered for this job, why even bother? i do power through these feelings of doubt because my failure rate would be 100% if i don't apply at all. maybe i'll get lucky or something. also going back to networking events. oh lawd incoming social failure ahoy. ♦ speaking of talking to people. i've decided to just stop with okcupid for the time being. i wasn't finding anyone remotely interesting (hoya lookalike oppar was a hater and didn't respond to my cute flirty message. fuq you) and kept on getting creepers in my inbox. and indian oppars that creep on my page every five minutes. i still have an account for the lulz because i like narrating my okcupid messages to tlist. ♦ SPEAKING OF INDIAN OPPARS. I did go on a date with one. It went horribly. I didn't want to give him a chance in the first place because i thought he was really pushy (srsly why are you so damn pressed that i don't respond to your text within an hour. calm da fuq down mang) but lisa and jackie told me that i was being unfair. he called me on a saturday and i picked up, thinking it was my mom D: the jabronie wanted our first date to be clubbing. i told him very politely to take a flying leap at the moon. he backtracked and asked me out for coffee and a movie. we ended up seeing something i didn't want to see. :) ♦ on the day of the date he was late. and then he was waiting at the wrong place. we had awkward conversation that had absolutely no flow whatsoever. the worst part was during the movie where he tried to continue the conversation at the worst times possible. during a scene where a cat was strangled he leaned over and asked me if i liked pets. there was also rape scene and he decided it would be appropriate to ask me i liked going clubbing. WATER YOU DEWING MANG. ♦ i think he wanted to get dinner but i wanted the date to be over so badly that i made up some bullshit excuse about how i had family coming over that evening and i needed to head back. he drove me back home in his ~expensive~ bmw that he couldn't stop gushing over. gag. the dude asked if he could come in for some coffee before my "family" came over. i eyed him and told him very gently that we already had coffee earlier. excuse you. i thanked him with a handshake. a handshake okay. ♦ i thought it was very clear that the date went terribly. but no! apparently he thought otherwise. he texted the day after asking if i wanted to get dinner. i told him point blank that i wasn't interested at all and didn't want to waste his or my time. he was a bit butthurt. i feel bad for not exactly being the best date evar, because he was gentlemanly and didn't try anything, but goddamn. we had no chemistry whatsoever. it also didn't help in that it looked like he had a toupee growing on his chest. i nearly ran away screaming when i saw that carpet of hair tumbling out of his polo shirt sjldffdfdsjsChestHairIsGrossOkay /mean |
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