
i suppose i can blame jane for my newfound love for pixels
| ♦ classes have started again. i'm trying to not psyche myself out (because i have a talent for that i suppose) but it's taking a lot of self control and inner monologue-pep talks. i'm only taking four classes this quarter and they aren't too bad? i don't have classes on fridays (three day weekends every week ayoooo) and i have huge gaps in between classes. it's a nice schedule but not very accommodating for if i get a job during the school year. hm. ♦ one thing i don't think i can ever get used to is the disconnect i feel with my business school classmates. my personality is just so dissimilar to about 98% of them. i don't possess professional asshole skills okay. just stop irritating me. just today i had this one girl look down on me because i don't already have a job offer lined up. gurl take those ugly 4 inch heels and shove them up your non-fat latte chugging arse. ♦ since i am graduating this spring, i have decided to hit the job market early. just the last week i've been staying strange hours of the morning applying for full time jobs, internships, part time gigs, basically anything i could get at. a bunch of big names (accenture, deloitte, mcgladrey, etc) are already recruiting so i'm scrambling to get things done. it's just so tiring because i get so worked up over how under qualified i am and how my background is so shabby compared to everyone else's. it's so frustrating to know that you don't stand a chance of even being considered for this job, why even bother? i do power through these feelings of doubt because my failure rate would be 100% if i don't apply at all. maybe i'll get lucky or something. also going back to networking events. oh lawd incoming social failure ahoy. ♦ speaking of talking to people. i've decided to just stop with okcupid for the time being. i wasn't finding anyone remotely interesting (hoya lookalike oppar was a hater and didn't respond to my cute flirty message. fuq you) and kept on getting creepers in my inbox. and indian oppars that creep on my page every five minutes. i still have an account for the lulz because i like narrating my okcupid messages to tlist. ♦ ( SPEAKING OF INDIAN OPPARS. I did go on a date with one. It went horribly. ) |
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