BECAUSE I AM GETTING LAZY, I'LL JUST FINISH THESE LAST FOUR DAYS IN ONE GO. AYOOOOO
day 01 – introduce yourself
day 02 – your first love
day 03 – your parents
day 04 – what you ate today
day 05 – your definition of love
day 06 – your day
day 07 – your best friend
day 08 – a moment
day 09 – your beliefs
day 10 – what you wore today
day 11 – your siblings
day 12 – what's in your bag
day 13 – this week
day 14 – what you wore today
day 15 – your dreams
day 16 – your first kiss
day 17 – your favorite memory
day 18 – your favorite birthday
day 19 – something you regret
day 20 – this month
day 21 – another moment
day 22 – something that upsets you
day 23 – something that makes you feel better
day 24 – something that makes you cry
day 25 – a first
day 26 – your fears
day 27 – your favorite place
day 28 – something that you miss
day 29 – your aspirations
day 30 – one last moment

day 26 – your fears
There are a lot of things that terrify me, spiders, snakes, scary movies (and yet I still go see them, I am a masochist), the dark (don’t laugh, I still sleep with a nightlight on), opening the door to my room and seeing a random stranger standing there…

I guess there are three things that I fear the most: not being able to say a proper farewell to someone I love, an unhappy future, and failing so badly at something that it is irreversible and unfixable.

The guilt I’d feel from any of those three would be indescribable.

day 27 – your favorite place
My bed. I legit am not joking. My bed is the best place ever. I would legit marry my pillow.

When I’m feeling tired/sleepy, I go to it for a nap. It raises my spirits if I am ever feeling upset. It’s always there for me when I study and when I need to fangirl.

The only thing it isn’t capable of doing is making food, but I guess I can pull off that aspect of our relationship

day 28 – something that you miss
I miss my childhood. Even though elementary school had its ups and downs, I miss the simplicity childhood carries. I didn’t have to worry about maintaining this thing called a gpa, looking for internships, networking/rubbing elbows with these bigwig business professionals….

Also aspects of life such as insensitive jokes, the fragility of relationships, wars, complications with the economy, the horror that sometimes presents itself on the news…It’s not that I hate responsibility, but sometimes the bliss of childhood just seems so much less tiring, y’know?

day 29 – your aspirations
I aspire to be someone that I can be happy with. I don’t plan to be perfect, but just someone that I can be content with, flaws and all.

day 30 – one last moment
I went back home for the weekend and Mom’s cooking is still the best. Even when I am lazy and attempt to cook, my cooking doesn’t come out as delicious as hers. I’m fine with it since she made me chicken and cod congee with 1000 year old egg. Omg heaven.

The only thing about going back home is that yes, I get delicious homemade food, but it also comes hand in hand with mom’s-complete-disregard-for-privacy (she barged in when I was in the bathroom earlier) and her rapid fire nagging skills (she should become a rapper with how fast she goes).

Going home, it seems like Bryan is a lot nicer to me now then say, for the last year. Facker. Though, I am concerned that he's falling prey to stereotypes and some homophobic behavior ;\ My parents aren't exactly the most open minded about gay and lesbian people (that was evidenced when my mom turned to some lesbian drama and she looked like her world was ending because two ladies were sucking face. my dad automatically assumes that any man that doesn't have interest in females are automatically "gay" ).
This was a conversation that I had with Bryan just five minutes ago:

Bryan: So...I saw that you had Trey Songz on your ipod...
Me: Yeah, I do. He's not bad. I like his songs. 
Bryan: Well I don't like him. 
Me: You don't like him? Or his music? Can you explain why? (he shrugs) You should have a logical reason why you don't like people. Like I'm not a fan of Miley because I feel like she's taking this "growing up" angle to mean she should dress as scantily as possible. And her voice grates my ears.
Bryan: I don't like him or his music because he's gay.
Me: ....does that affect how he sings? (Bryan shrugs again) Being gay doesn't affect his singing. You can disagree with his lifestyle but you can't say that someone is a bad singer just because he or she is gay.
Bryan: ....
Me: Yeah you think about that.